Chronicles of a High Guy Vol 1 Chapter 1

Okay I've just thought of a great idea. Seeing that a lot of deep thinking goes on while one is high, I'm going to post up some of my thoughts and actions while I am high. As you may or may not know I have started dabbling into the world of brownies and have found the effects interesting if not strong at times but anyways back to the whole point of this.....As I was saying I will be posting up whatever it is I'm typing, thinking, or doing while i am Hi and posting it up here whether they are finished or not......so here is the first post of Chronicles of a High Guy this is a short one but still.....Enjoy!!!!!!!


"Big Girls Don't Cry

Nothing breaks my heart more than to see a girl cry especially a beautiful one. So imagine how I felt when the saw the girl who a lot of the guys consider to be the baddest girl at Post (right now) crying. Sure it may have been for a stupid reason like.....(crying because upset that you've drank to the point where you're throwing up and you're embarrassed)...but she was crying none the less and she was vulnerable and it just broke my heart. I don't know why, but I have tended to view girls as being these precious thing that needed to be taken care of be made happy so to see one unhappy it bothers me because they don't deserve to be feeling that way"

Growing up is hard to do

So earlier today I'm on facebook and I see my old elementary school crush has posted up a link on her myspace linking to some guys myspace who happens to be a fan and apparently he's used one of her pics as his layout out so I'm like ok.....let me check this out......Imagine to my surprise when the page loaded and I saw a full page spread of her sanz clothing. First of all never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would ever see this girl naked. It was so much of a shock that I really didn't know what to do with that information. So I do a little internet searching and i find out that she's a fetish model. First there's the 21 year old mature part of me that finds the pictures rather pleasing (toned down exactly how the pic made me feel) but there was still the part of me that remembered the girl that I slipped, tripped, and busted my lip for. The first girl that I ever had any kind of infatuation for and a dude was only seven at the time and the crush lasted til I ws probably fourteen. The girl who basically set the bar for every other girl who came afterwards. Honestly if you saw this girl you would basically see the connection with every other girl that came afterwards. So I'm like torn cause the adult in me is hype that he came across this works while the kid in me is crushed. I know it's a little irrational, you know people grow, people change but it's just that it hit me like a ton of bricks. Honestly this is gonna seem so wrong of me but I think I've fallen in love all over again, well not really love since you know how i feel about that word but.....yo i can't explain it, I think she's gonna be on my mind for a good few days....I didn't think anyone could top Lauren London in my mind......I guess i was wrong.

New Passion......Ultimate Betrayal

When it comes to music I listen to just about everything with a preference to one genre over the other but just this summer I started listening to more and more latin music, specifically Reggaeton and Bachata. I've been listening to Reggaeton for some time now but my appeciation for Bachata is somewhat new....I found it so amazing....because of it I was introduced to a band duo called Xtreme and started listening to more Aventura. Of all the Aventura songs I've listened to, there's one that seems to catch my attention more than the others. The song is called "Ella Y Yo" and basically in the song Don Omar is talking to his friend played by Romeo from Aventura and he's confessing how he's having an affair with some dudes wife. The whole time Romeo is talking about how his life with his wife is perfect and how Don Omar should still persue this girl because apparently her husband doesn't hold her heart anymore...The whole time Don Omar is telling Romeo that he doesn't know who this dude is or understand the situation but Romeo still keeps convincing him to follow his heart, then finally Don Omar admits that the person that he's been having an affair with is Romeo's wife and asks him for forgiveness because it's killing him that he gave into temptation and betrayed his friend. Romeo refuses to forgive him and says that he lost two people in his life that night and says goodbye to him forever.personally I love this song but am disgusted by what happened in the song. I'm like...."how could he betray his friend like that and sleep with his wife". I think why this song gets to me is because of I've lived a situation similar to this on more than one occasion. It just urks me how someone could be betrayed like that by the person/people he cares about....

Cheaters.....Why?

Okay we're gonna move away from my usual self-loathing posts to something a bit more serious and not all me, me, all about me. We're gonna talk about cheating and why it happens. Honestly the thought of cheating sickens me and I truly dislike people who do it. So I want to understand why it happens. By cheating you do know I mean infidelity right? If you're going to commit your heart to someone why would you do something as idiotic as cheat on them. If you truly feel the need to cheat on them why don't you just break up with them instead because they're apparently lacking something you want or not giving you something you need. One site says "Statistically speaking, men cheat for a single primary reason: sex". The site then goes on to say that it is a the biological urge of men to "spread their seed" that drives them. In the case of marriages & committed couple men sex tends to become routine or mechanical. Not an adventure as it once was, but simply as a means to an end. And so they seek that adventure, that adrenaline rush, with another woman (or women). As you would guess it's a lot more complicated for women than just sex. According to the site most women don't cheat for the sake sex but rather it is a secondary concern to them. Apparently when it comes to women you have to look at the emotional aspect rather than the physical aspect of cheating. They will carry on emotional affairs...where they'll fall in love and experience emotional intimacy with a men, while never taking it to the physical level. It's these type of affairs that can continue on for years, without ever being detected, and often leaving a wake of destruction in their path. So basically if a man isn't giving them the attention they want they go and find it somewhere else. Honestly I feel that this makes men look like the bad guys. I feel that this is saying that men cheat and are also responsible for women cheating but sadly it makes sense. First I'll tackle the mens' side then the womens'. Okay, I understand that it is a biological instinct to spread our seed that drives us but we are not animals but we have certain parts of our personality called the ego and superego which separates us from the animals and controls our animalistic needs. There are other biological factors that affect other animals but we can control why can't the need to spread our seeds and dominate be one of them. If you find that sex is becoming a routine why don't you communicate with your partner and spice it up a lil, do something different for once that isn't part of your routine so it feels new and you don't feel the need to get that brand new feeling from someone else. Now I find the woman's aspect of cheating to be easier to tackle. COMMUNICATION!!!!!!! If you feel your partner is not giving you the attention you need then communicate that fact to then. maybe they don't notice that or maybe they have a lot going on with themselves but communication is key. If he's still not giving you the attention you need then drop the dude and find someone who will appreciate you and what you have to offer rather than cheat on him. If he is giving you attention but it's still not satisfying you then maybe you need to re-evaluate yourself. All in all cheating does not need to happen and we owe it to ourselves and our partners to see that it ends.

Letter to Ms. R apparently miss Right

One of my "friends" told me today that she feels lonely. I wanted to tell her I feel lonely too so why don't we fix that together but I didn't. This friend of mine happens to be a girl I've been interested in but my problem is I've been interested in a lot of girls. So many girls that I'm not sure what I want at times. I ask myself who is the girl who truly holds my heart right now...and one person pops into my head....Ms. R. YOu may be saying "If I feel so strongly about Ms. R, why don't I tell her?" but what if i'm afraid of being hurt. What if I'm so use to being rejected that the first thought that comes into my head when I'm interested in a girl is "Why even bother, you know you don't stand a chance." That's the life i've lived. I've tried to be more than I currently am, make changes to myself to make me more appealing but it just makes me feel uncomfortable to not be who I am. I just want to tell her "Honestly I have spent almost six months chasing you. It's been hard but something in me just keeps pushing even though on some level I feel more and more hurt and think even lower and lower of myself. You are the-the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is-is-is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. You are the perfect girl to me even with all whatever flaws no matter how numerous thay may be, but you know what, I have my flaws too. I can tell myself over and over that I'm done with you but the end of the day it's you that I can't get my mind off of. You are like one of those few girls that offer practically everything I look for but not the major things.....your trust and your heart. I try so hard to break down that wall you have but I feel like I just can't. I would use everything god-made possible to do it but I don't know what it is that I need."

A Purpose....

I've been told that I put too much personal info into this blog. Well that was the reason I created this blog. To be my outlet because like I said I don't like opening up to people and I need to get out my thought and feelings somehow. I could just write in a journal but I find myself allowing people to read them anyway. I've "forgotten" my journal's in different places numerous times for people to read them. I do it because I want people to understand who I am and where I come from and what I'm facing. So what if it's too much, it's my life. It's not like I'm giving out my social security number. So.....on to my life. Basically.....I'm gonna use a new system when referring to girls so as to avoid confusion. We start with Ms. R, ah yes Ms. R. I've been attempting to court ms. R for about 3 or 4 months now. Only managed to take her out once and since then have been unsuccessful in my endeavors. I've been told by numerous people to not ask her out anymore. One person said wait for her to come to me while another says just completely move on and just talk to her as a friend. I'm sorta doing both but come on I really don't like to give up. Also this does not seem like the kind of girl who would get the clue and ask me to go out anywhere. So ms. A, my good ol' buddy ms. A. ms. A and I have had a very interesting relationship. We first started out not liking each other and then ended up becoming very good friends. Sometimes I even view her as one of my best friends. The thing is I sometimes find myself becoming attracted to her on numerous occasions. At times sexually attracted but also at times romantically attracted to her. So here's the problem, first she has like OD (I'm talking OD) history with one of my best friends, and she is completely oblivious to me as anything more than a friend (ehhh, that's my life for you). Anywayzzzz, ms. A is continuously having relationship problems and I am the constant shoulder to cry on. I keep my mouth shut and comfort her when what I really wanna be saying is "we're both looking for the same thing why can't we find it in each other. These guys don't appreciate who you are and what you have to offer but at the end of the day I do." You'd think the fact that I've disliked almost every guy she's messed with or been in a relationship with would have been a clue but nope. I sometimes find myself wishing that things had been different between us back in HS then maybe things would be different between us now but at this point what can I really do now. Then there's Ms. P. Ms. P is like me with tits and energy but she's just another opportunity missed(or is she). Just when I thought ms P was out of my life she comes to my school. Lucky ME!!!!!!!! (sarcasm). I usually wouldn't mind but she has such a flirtatious personality that's just gonna pull me back in and the girl already has a boyfriend. uuuugghhhh, Why me, why me!!!!!! I can't avoid her cause we're in the same circle of friends, So what do I do, what do I do? So those are the top 3 Ms.' right now. There are a few more, not a lot more but those are the top 3 and the ones who matter right now. Let's see how things progress.

Blank Slate

This week I've been given the chance to see how my life could be if I make the right changes necessary. I was given the opportunity to really talk to a friend of mine that I've known for some time now and had a lot in common with. Little did I know is we had a lot more in common than I could ever imagine. The only difference is he is a lot better with the ladies than I am. The thing is though he use to be in the exact same boat as me. I mean down to a T, he was me. The nice guy, the hopeless romantic, the guy who wrote the poems for the girl, the one who always gets stuck in the nearly inescapable "friend zone". Hell some of the things we had in common were downright creepy, if not scary. Well anyway, as I was saying, this dude USE to be in the same boat as me but has come to understand how to play the game better. Yes it is a game though some will disagree with me. So seeing that he understands who I am seeing that he basically lived my life, I asked him to give me some tips as to how to change things around and one of these the things he told me is to start with a blank slate and basically just look in the mirror and examine who I am and what I have to offer. Also how can I go about presenting these qualities in a desirable way. He also introduced me to a site that I feel everyone should check out no matter how tight your swag is http://extraordinaryg.wordpress.com. The site gives some very good incites. Some of which I was already aware of and have been practicing as well as some that were new to me and will try out. To see the person I can be become has inspired me. It's like finally seeing the light in the dark. I now really see what I need to do to breakout of the nice-guy complex and soon enough there'll be a new me. Just need to start out with a blank slate. Please leave your comments and checkout http://extraordinaryg.wordpress.com

The Real Life Hitch

Hitch - "Basic Principles - no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet; he just needs the right broom."

Me - "Any guy can get any girl he wants. his game just has to be on point."

Believe it or not I';ve been saying that line since before Hitch came out in theatres. My life has more in common with that movie than just that line. Basically I've been somewhat of a Hitch myself. I've been giving out advice for as long as I can remember; specifically relationship advice. Whenever a friend is in a predicament of what to say or what to do with a member of the opposite sex or is having some kind of problem with their significant other, they tend to come to me at times and my advice tends to be realy good. So I know what you're wondering. How does a guy who gives out relationship advice not be in a very prosperous relationship or whatever. I'm pretty sure if I really knew that answer then I wouldn't be where I am. It just seems like for me things just don't pan out the way I think they will. I give the advice but implementing them myself is a lot more difficult for me. Am I even utilizing myself though? I wish I had my own me who could analyze me and give me advice. Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?

This is me then....

Most people don't understand who I am because I have trouble letting people in so this is me giving random facts about myself

Favorites:

Color-Blue

Food-Mac n Cheese

Book-Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince

Drink-Iced Tea (The Haitian kind with Vanilla Extract in it)

Singer-Usher

Number-5

Athlete-Kobe Bryant

Sport- To watch Basketball, To participate in Track

Track & Field Event- 400m

Quote- "Nothing is impossible, Just hard to get"

Earliest Memory - First Day of school, Don't remember anything before then

Greatest Triumph - Getting The RA Position

Biggest Tragedy - Fathers Death

First thing that attracts me to a girl: Her Smile, Then her Eyes

Favorite Passtime - Surfing the internet, Read Comics(Yes I do that, this is my Cartoons)

Favorite Superhero - Bart Allen aka Impulse aka Kid Flash aka Flash no. 4

Favorite Song - At the moment "Can You Stand the Rain" by New Edition








Excerpt from my Autobiography (yes I know, a lot to read)

Life to me means friends and family who you can trust and who trusts you. I don’t really fully trust anyone because I feel most people have let me down or let me down except for my mother and that prevents me from getting close to or being able to open up fully to anyone. Whenever I completely put my faith in someone to help me accomplish a task they don’t always come through for me and cause of that I have learned to rely on myself more and more but I still long to find someone, possibly a significant other in which I can put all my trust because I feel not being able to trust anyone is doing more harm to me than good. I’m basically content in life. I’m not sad but I’m also not over the top happy. I feel very thankful for the friends that I have and I have a lot of friends but at the same time I still feel alone and misunderstood.

My greatest fear is the basic idea of death because I fear that once you’re dead then that’s it. There is no afterlife such as heaven or hell and there’s just nothing as in you cease to exist. I know death is natural and we have no control over it but the idea that when it’s over it’s just over scares me and at times prevents me from looking ahead to the future because I feel I’m just another step closer to the inevitable but I refuse to let my fear prevent me from living in the present like I’d love to get a motorcycle or even go skydiving sometime in the near future because while I fear death I live to make more experiences for myself. I don’t fray away from taking risks because I believe with great risk comes even greater rewards. I guess in a way you can say my greatest fear is of the unknown because I have no idea what comes after the end.

Another fear of mine is the fear of failure and living in regret. When I start something for the most part I tend to finish it because otherwise it starts to eat at me. Even if I have to fight the odds I make sure it gets done. To not finish something that I start is like a major hit in the gut and it just bothers until I get it done. I just tell myself whatever is keeping me from accomplishing the task is all in my head and can completely be overcome if I put my mind to it. I truly believe that anything and I mean anything in life is possible but is just hard to get. Knowing that nothing is impossible puts more possibilities in your reach. I don’t let anything discourage me from the ultimate prize.

My greatest desire in life is to travel the world and visit places such as Paris, Barcelona, and Rome. The idea of being free to travel the world and experience new and different cultures has always interested me. I also want the freedom that traveling brings. I want to be able to see historical landmarks, interact with people who’s customs are completely different from my own and experience the nightlife that these places have to offer. I’ve even considered moving to France because I’ve always been fascinated by the country. Who knows, someday I just might but I know for sure I’m going to visit it sometime in the next five years.

Another desire of mine is to have my own family. I feel that I want a family to have people that rely on me and that I can come through for the way my father came through for my family. At the same time I can rely on them too but I will hold off on the idea of a family until I am stable enough to support one. I want to give them everything my parents gave me as well as the things my parents couldn’t give me. At the same time I am going to be a little more lenient with them because though I am proud of the way my parents raised me they are accustomed to different things growing up in Haiti than growing up in America because of that they have been more strict than most parents born in America are. I will raise my kids with some of the ideals I was raised with but will at the same time incorporate my own experiences growing up in America.

Five years from now I see myself still in school. Either I’ll be in graduate school or in medical school. I’m either going to be studying to be a psychiatrist or an anesthesiologist if the medical school thing works out I want to make the most I possibly can out of myself and I believe that advancing my education as far as I possibly can aid me in that endeavor. I also see myself married in five years. Ten years from now I see myself either with a PhD and possibly the head supervisor at whatever laboratory I’m working at or finishing off my residency and one more step towards my medical license.

I believe my greatest triumph is being where I am today. I’m a High School graduate; I am a junior Biomedical Science major at Long Island University’s CW Post campus and one more step towards being a doctor. I’m a Resident Assistant, a member of the NAACP, and the Vice President of Black Students United. I’m trying to be as involved as possible on campus because like I said earlier I want to make the most out of myself and go as far as I can possibly go. I want to be a senator on the student government association, a member of the E-board for my school’s chapter of the NAACP, and I want to write a comic book column for my schools newspaper. I hope that by doing all this that when I reach that point in my life I’ll be able to look back on my past and feel like I accomplished something and made a difference.

The reason I want to become a doctor is not because of the money because there are so many other jobs that require less work and get more money but rather to make a difference because I enjoy helping others. I’m always there to give advice and assist any of my friends when they’re in trouble, I give blood every opportunity I can, I donate money all the time, and I even managed to get one of my old history teachers on “Help Me Howard” so he could find a live Kidney donor because of the difference he made and my life. I don’t help others for the recognition but rather for the satisfaction of knowing that I made a difference. At the end of the day that’s what I’d like to look back and realize. I wish that everyone would feel that way about helping others.

11 Things Guys Don’t Understand About Women

Men always say they don’t “get” the female sex, but what specifically—besides their going to the restroom in groups—don’t they comprehend? We found out.

1. Why, oh, why, can’t you create a single, central location for your hair ties and bobby pins?!? And why is there one on the handle of the microwave?


2. Why are women so afraid of bugs but can regularly pour hot wax on their bodies and rip hair out by its roots?


3. Girls and drama! My God, it’s like an episode of Dawson’s Creek! He said, she said…it goes on and on for years. Do you ever get over an argument?


4. I am confused enough about why the onslaught of hormones every month, like clockwork, still takes me by surprise (the next day when she gets her period, I’m like, Oh! We got into a fight because she was hormonal!), but why does that fact take her by surprise? Shouldn’t she kind of realize it and be like, ‘Don’t listen to me—I’m hormonal’?


5. I don’t get why getting married so soon is so important to most women. Is love not enough?


6. Why all the shoes? Really, my sister has suitcases full of shoes that I’ve thrown aside more often than she’s even seen them. It boggles the mind!


7. I don’t understand their attitudes! Everything is good for, like, the first three months, but after that, it’s a whole different ball game!


8. I don’t get why girls say one thing and mean something different. Like when they say, ‘You can watch the game,’ and then when you do, you get in trouble.


9. What I don’t understand is why girls really, really, really want that nice guy, but once they find one, they can’t date him because now they need a jerk.


10. Why do girls not like other girls when they first meet them? It’s as if they have to prove themselves to each other before they’ll consider them acceptable to hang out with.


11. I don’t understand why women can’t just speak more directly. They always want you to do something, but they don’t put it in words. Instead, they talk around the issue. I wish they were more up front and just said it!

How Well Do I Understand Women

Your Result: Excellent!! (100%)

You've Got to be Kidding Me!! Either you're an expert

on the field of Women, or you've cheated!! Or else, you

might just be a women who has taken the quiz to see if

it's really authentic! Whatever it is, Congratulations....

You're an Expert on the most difficult topic on earth....

Women!!

I understand that:

What is the first thing women look for in a man is stability

For a typical romantic night out with her guy, a girl would most like dinner outside and a walk along the river

Women are most worried about the way they present themselves

That in a relationship a woman starts to trusting a guy when he becomes a best friend.

In a desparate situation where only one of these can be carried in her handbag, she will choose a small mirror

Women prefer to get married to men who are strong, stable, and are good providers

The one thing most women can't do without is a make-up kit

On a first date, you must never tell her how much you love her

The one trait, women most envy in a man is their status in society

If a Woman really likes you, she will send you suttle glances and smiles to let you know she likes you

If a group of Married women got together they most talk about their intimate love lives

Women feels happiest when their partner supports their decisions

Most women are happiest between the age of 20-30

A woman really feels like a woman she falls deeply in love

In bed, the most important thing a woman wants is closeness with their partner

I got the concepts down, so what am I missing? Maybe it's how I use what I know?

Girls Ain't Nothing But Trouble.

One is pregnant (not by me), one is completely oblivious to my feelings, one is way out of my league and has a boyfriend, and one everyone keeps telling me not to mess with because of her reputation. Is it that I make bad choices when it comes to women or is it that women are just way too much trouble. So we start with the girl that's pregnant. So this was like the first girl I ever said I love you to and meant it. Sure this was back in High School but I still think about her every now and then and always hoped that something might happen between us in the future but I don't even know now. Next is the girl that is completely oblivious to my feelings for her. We had what I feel was one of the greatest weeks my life together and at the end of it she completely pulled the friend card on me. I've tried to forget about her and move on but it's been so hard. I've even given signs that I still like her by giving her special gifts and just being there for her but nothing. Next the girl who has a boyfriend and is way out of my league. well the problem there is obvious, she has a boyfriend and is way out of my league. But the thing is this is probably the baddest chick I have ever ever ever laid my eyes on and it sucks to feel like I have no chance. Finally we have the girl with the reputation, I really love talking to her and she is very attractive but it gets discouraging when everyone is telling you not to. Girl, Girls, Girls. If you ever see me alone being mad quiet, it's cause I'm thinking about a girl or girls.

Unrequited Affection

You'd think I'd learn my lesson, not to go back to or chase after girls that have rejected you. Why do I continue you to cling to hope that maybe things might change. I need to understand that she turned you down once and that's her loss. There are better and more appreciating girls out there. I been stuck on this one girl on and off for almost a year now and I really need to let her go or else the damage is gonna be beyond repair. I just continue to this; hold on and refuse to move forward. If she doesn't appreciate who I am the first time around what are the chances that she'll learn. I'm missing out on so many opportunities by holding on. I should just continue to be that good friend and and find that girl who appreciates a good man. So why do we keep holding on when we know that it's not gonna work out?

Light Chocolate V.S. Dark Chocolate

This has been on my mind for many years. Does it look bad on my part that I'm mostly attracted to lightskinned girl. It's not something I think i can even control. I've been attracted to lightskinned girls for as long as i can remember. My first crush when I was just seven was lightskin and most of the girls I've liked or gone out with have been lightskinned. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying Darkskinned girls are ugly cause there have been a few darkskinned girls that I've liked through the ages but I constantly find myself instantly attracted to a girl whose lightskinned. Well it could be worse, I could be only attracted to white girls. I think this is a male psychological thing. If I remember anything from Psych class, men look in for in partners genes that they wish to pass on to their offspring, while women look for security hence why men care more about looks than women. So what do y'all think

Birthdate Deciding Personality

November

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

The thing that is so shocking is that this describes me to the T. This is definitely my personality minus the patience part, I am rather impatience. So my question is, does ones date of birth decide their personality. I've met so many people in my lifetime whose personalities are for the most part what their astrological signs say they should be. Do you really believe in all this?

Aries - (March 21 - April 19) Freedom-loving, assertive, individualistic, pioneering, leader, action-oriented, fiery, straightforward, passionate, powerful. Can be extreme, arrogant, intemperate, violent, headstrong, impulsive.

Taurus - (April 20 - May 20) Resourceful, thorough, devoted, patient, sensual, affectionate, cautious, musical, artistic, solid, earthy, strong, sturdy, kind. Can be slow, possessive, boring, stubborn, indulgent.

Gemini - (May 21 - June 20) Logical, inquisitive, lively, active, curious, multi-tasking, talkative, sociable, charismatic, generous, duality, mercurial, whimsical. Can be superficial, fickle, inconstant, restless, impulsive, headstrong, stubborn.

Cancer - (June 21 - July 22) Protective, sensitive, tenacious, family and home oriented, helpful, nurturing, watery, emotional, loving. Can be crabby, clinging, moody, worrying, pessimistic.

Leo - (July 23 - August 22) Generous, proud, theatrical, passionate, sunny, bright, kingly, powerful, loves attention, dramatic, independent, noble, creative, leader. Can be arrogant, bossy, boastful, egotistic, snobbish.

Virgo - (August 23 - September 22) Practical, imaginative, creative, efficient, critical, work and service oriented, common sense, modest, health conscious, mentally active, helpful, flexible. Can be pedantic, fussy, over-critical, worrying, over fastidious.

Libra - (September 23 - October 23) Co-operative, diplomatic, urbane, fair, needs partnerships, refined, balanced, graceful, charming, debative, just, open-minded, social. Can be lazy, indecisive, rationalizing.

Scorpio - (October 24 - November 22) Passionate, secretive, powerful, keenly perceptive, deep, leader, complex, analytical, inquisitive, resourceful, magnetic, intense, hypnotic, sexual, perspicacious, creative, vigorous, untameable, ambitious. Can be jealous, controlling, possessive, deceitful, cruel, arrogant, selfish.

Sagittarius - (November 23 - December 21) Freedom loving, straightforward, relaxed, extrovert, philosophical, intellectual, fun-loving, adventurous, expansive, optimistic. Can be blundering, scattered, careless, too-serious, arrogant, tactless.

Capricorn - (December 22 - January 19) Prudent, cautious, patient, methodical, practical, reserved, ambitious, authoritative, competent. Can be saturnine, suspicious, rigid, cunning, over-cautious, pessimistic.

Aquarius - (January 20 - February 19) Intuitive, unconventional, intellectual, egliaterian, detached, friendship oriented, independent, humanitarian, cause-oriented, believes in the group/society, progressive, sophisticated, trend setting,opinionated, devoted to goals. Can be eccentric, elitist, dogmatic, aloof.

Pisces - (February 20 - March 20) Imaginative, sensitive, compassionate, feeling, idealistic, spiritual, accepting, undiscriminating, creative, mystic, self-sacrificing, artistic. Can be impractical, neglectful, escapist, lazy, distracted.

Nice Guy Complex

Background
Nice guys don't get many dates, because they feel more comfortable going out with a woman who already expresses an interest in them. There's any number of nice guys in the world, and most of them are content to be that way. However, some nice guys develop a psychological defense mechanism about their lack of dates, and this is the beginning of the nice guy complex.
Diagnosis
A man suffering the nice guy complex begins by looking around and seeing everyone else going out with more women than he is. (Often they get this idea from television rather than their friends.) He concludes that this is only because he's a nice guy, and he doesn't prey on women aggressively like everyone else obviously does. After all, doesn't everyone know nice guys finish last?
In reality, he may not be expressing his interests in those women to whom he's attracted, or he may be so focused on one particular woman that he refuses to consider other women at all. Perhaps he's not really the nice guy he thinks he is, and all the other women are put off by the personality they see in him. Or perhaps he's simply dull and boring. ("No way, not me”)
Dangers
It's this gradual obsession with the guy's own niceness being the reason he's unattached that creates the nice guy complex. This may become harmful, if the nice guy allows his ego to become inflated over how nice he really is, thus making him "not-so-nice-after-all".
Whether it does or doesn't, though, it's generally crippling to the guy's social life. The guy believes he has no redeeming qualities that would attract women, other than his own niceness. Eventually he may stop trying to be attractive at all, either in looks, interests, or attitude, thinking that niceness ought to be enough, and "Shouldn't a woman love me just for who I am?"
Treatment
The best treatment for the nice guy complex is self-improvement. An exercise program, art classes, dance lessons, or learning to cook are all great beginnings. The idea is to develop something that will help the guy be proud of himself, so that he doesn't have to dwell on his niceness as his primary redeeming feature. The idea is to progress from being merely a nice guy into an actual gentleman.
The irony, of course, is that developing any of these talents may attract a woman to him who will tell him, some day, that the thing she always loved about him is what a nice guy he is. Guys, don't believe her if this happens. All women love nice guys, but that's the last thing she really learns about you; what impressed her is the way you could dance or possibly the way you draw.

Domestic Abuse is a No-No, Rih Rih V.S. Chris Breezy

So as everyone knows Chris Brown "allegedly", beat down his girlfriend Rihanna. Personally I hope they rape his ass in prison due to my personal dislike of Chris Brown but I'm even more angered at that my dude went in on her. Okay if she was attacking him and he got a few hits in to chill her out okay but he seriously went in. And then we find out that this isn't the first time. That's he's been beating her for some time. She is so stupid for going back to him. Plus they're engaged. Even Oprah says she neeeds to leave him. You know when Oprah opens her mouth it's serious. Personally I have never lifted my hand to a woman I was not related to mostly because I havent been put int hat situation because I respect women too much. The only reason Chris Brown would ahve had to go in like that is if the Herpes rumor was true. Then I'd just be surprised he didn't kill her. But anywhoo, 1 in 4 women are victims of domestic abuse at some point in their life. ANd the problem is that these women are not reporting it, or continue to stay in relationships with their abusers. Abuse victims will leave out of either fear, anger or resentment, But then, after the fear, anger or resentment begins to subside, they feel guilt, shame, anxiety, and that takes them back. After a violent episode the abuser goes through the I'm sorry, I love you, it'll never happen again stage and most of the time the women are quick to take them back possibly out of fear of independent, don't know how to take care of themselves or don't want to face shame from friends and family. But please ladies, don't let any man put their hands on you no matter how much they say they love you, If that were true then they would not touch you in such a manner. One kick is all you need to take them down and leave their ass forever.

Secret Admirer

Don't you sometimes wish that life was like a movie. I'm not talking about actiony, or sci-fi-ish, I'm talking a real down to earth romance movie, or at least a romantic comedy where the nice-guy wins by being the most sincere and thoughtful out of all the dickheads. The one where everything plays out the way you expect it. The one where you see every cliche imaginable (See The Notebook). I'm talking College Romance: The Movie:


Boy meets Girl. Boy and girl are from completely different world. Boy asks girl out anyway. Boy and girl fall in love. Girls parents don't approve of relationship. Boy and girl have huge fight. Girl leaves. Boy and girl can't stop thinking about eachother but continue to live their lives. Girl meets someone new but still can't get Boy out of head so heads back to get closer. Boy and girl argue again. Boy and girl have hot passionate sex. Girl can't believe she made that mistake. Girl leaves tries to move on with new guy but can't move on because she still loves boy. So she heads back and they live happily ever after.

But of course we live in the real world where most guys are dicks, most girls think that nice guys don't exist so they go out with the dicks thinking that they can convert them. Nice guys are left out in the cold because the girls don't know what they want when all along the guy they've been looking for has been next to them the whole time.

Song of The Moment: Secret Admirer - Pitbull featuring lloyd

Girl you should know that
(girl you should know)
I've got you on my mind
Your secret admirer
Girl I've been watchin you (you, you)
Can't get enough of (you, you)
Can't get enough of (you, you)
Can't get enough of you

Ooooh
At night I think of you
I want to be your lover baby
So if you need some love,
give me a call boo
I can be the one, to come and freak you

Girl on the brain

Okay, typical Edride: I look into her eyes, she smiles, and I'm trapped. Why am i such a sucker for nice eyes, and a cute smile. Uggggghhh, I hate myself. So I'm on that I like someone tip again. I thought she was cute when I first saw here and then she smiled at me and I was hooked. I jsut love this girls personality. It's jsut so random and amazing. I wanna pull out all the stops but I don't wanna be in the same boat I'm always in. uuuggghhhhh, damn you girlz. But anywho yeah, like i said cute smile, nice eyes, random personality, nice body, and when we dance OMG I'm in love (lol, let me stop). But really this girl is a TTP as far as I'm concerned. "SO many people think they got it but they don't have a clue you gotta have more than just a body for me to be talking bout you" (TTP - Usher). I don't know how to take the approach on this one. I'm tired of being hurt and being alone. I can't change my nice boy ways. This is who I am but not what girls want. Why must they be so complicated.

So, I'm in my 3rd year of college and I feel like my life is still the same way it was when I first started here. I may have gotten to know people but I still feel like I'm missing out on big things.