And It Kills Me...

Do you know how it feels to have such a capacity for love and never have someone appreciate or return anything close to those feelings for you. I feel like I'm dying inside. The pain is so unbearable. I honestly can't take it anymore. It hurts so much to be able to feel so strongly. I want to know how it feels to be loved and I don't mean by family and friends, I've had that or atleast I think I have but I want to feel honest to god my world will end without you love. I don't care about sex(not saying that I won't have sex given the opporunity), playing games, messing around. I truly, deeply, wholeheartedly would take the chance to be in love over all of that. I'm jsut ready to give my heart away and recieve one in return. I don't cheat, I try not to lie, I care, I appreciate. Why can't I find love... My greatest strength is my greatest weakness.

The Legendary Unicorn aka Nice Guys Really Do Exist

According to Wikipedia ""Nice guy" is a term in the general public discourse and in popular culture for a male with certain personality traits and behavior. A typical "nice guy" is a man who is likely to put the needs of others before his own, avoid instigating confrontations, do favors, give emotional support, and generally act in a way consistent with the general meaning of "nice". It is an active debate whether these traits, which have historically been considered valuable in courtship, may actually make a man less desirable from a sexual perspective. Supposedly, "nice guys" spend a lot of time in the "friend zone."


I'm getting really tired of girls saying "There are no nice guys anymore", or "Why can't I find a nice guy", or any variant of such comments. Sorry to burst your bubble ladies but there are a whole lot of nice guys out there. Nice guys are not mythical like unicorns ladies. They are not all taken, or all gay, or all creepy. Most true nice guys are who they appear to be and don't turn into someone else once. The problem is most girls say they want a nice guy but aren't really attracted to the nice guy mentality or as the article says find nice guys sexually appealing. What they do find sexually appealing is the bad boys or the "jerks" because they view that as a sign of strength. Trust it is nothing but a false sense of strength. Some of these guys turn out to be abusers, harassers, or just plain immature. What I see girls do is they get involved with these guys who don't treat them fairly and expect more than they can give out of them, try and make them into the nice guy they've been supposedly looking for. You want to know why girls can't seem to find a decent man because once again as the article says they make these guys as friends to be they're cushion while they go on their quest and fail. Come on a nice guy is there for you, comforts you, makes you laugh, understands you, that's the kind of thing girls want to last forever and what do you feel lasts forever.....That's right a friendship. Because these guys make girls feel so good they want to hold on to that feeling for as long as possible and not risk the chance of losing it. Friendships do tend to last longer than relationships and why take the chance of risking the loss? I have a challenge for you girls. I challenge you to give one of your best friends a chance or at least entertain the idea of making them more then a friend. Think about how it feels to be around that, how they make you feel as a person. Where do you see things possibly going between the two of you if you do (realistically)? Weigh out the risks to the reward. Then tell me whether or not it was worth it. You know they say the best relationships start out as friendships but come on you have to be the one willing to take that leap forward or else you're just stuck wondering wear all the nice guys are. For you ladies who don't have a lot of guy friends or any that you're close to I challenge you to open your eyes or your options and give a chance to someone you normally wouldn't. You never know a lot of these guys will surprise you and make you happier then you thought you could ever be.

99 things EVERY guy wants from a girl

I was going through this website that I usually visit when I'm bored at work and came across this Post that i found very interesting. I found a lot of them to be true....some more than others but true none the less....anyway I thought I would share it...The ones with stars next to them I find that I relate to the most.

1. Guys prefer neat and presentable girls.

*2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

*6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

***7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

***8. Guys love a girl’s smile.

*9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

*12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

*15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

*17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

*18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys love it when girls touch their hands.

*20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

*23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else

25. Guys love their moms.

***26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

*31. Like Eve, girls are guys weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

*38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

*42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

*43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

*45. Guys think too much.

*46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

*47. Guys hate it when girls talk about their period

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

*49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

*51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame
themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

*60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

*61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

*68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

*77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

*97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

*98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

***99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Just a Friend 2010 (Not to be confused the 2002 version)

Friend Zone - "The situation where the female has begun to view a male as a friend only and not a potential suitor, a psychological classification supposedly exceptionally difficult to undo."

What is it about women that causes them to feel compelled to place men in the supposed "impenetrable" friend Zone?

I've had my fare share of encounters with the friend zone, actually more than I'd like to admit. But there are a few things that have boggled my mind, why are women so insistent on not crossing the line between friend and lover. They refuse to take that risk. Constantly worried of ruining the friendship. What is it about guys that we're not afraid to take that risk. You know what they say, the greater the risk, the greater the reward. Come on if you can be such great friends what makes you think that a relationship with that person won't be an even greater experience. I feel you have the same chance of ruining the friendship as you do the relationship. By not taking the chance you could be missing out on what could be the greatest thing to ever happen to you. There's a saying "Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn't seem to crack. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces.", maybe girls need to have a guy mindset not just when it comes to sex but also relationship, you don't know that can happen til you give it a try. Here's a tip to all you guys who are stuck in the friendzone and are looking for a way out....this is very risky....personally I've only tried this once and it actually worked. What you have to do is put your friendship on the line. Let her know that you guys would be great together and being just friends won't work, and you have to end if.....like I said, it's a huge risk, but either one of two things will happen, thats the end of a friendship or she'll come to her senses and realize how she doesn't wanna lose you from her life and want to take the chance at being more than friends. If you wanna try this, then I wish you nothing but luck and hopefully happiness cause us good guys deserve it.

One step from the Edge

I am in a very, very fragile state of mind right now.....Everyone who thinks they're helping, trust me you're really not....you're just making things worse and worse....you continue to talk about things and give advice on things you know nothing about....Maybe if you all collaborated and put in what little pieces you have you would come close to something that resembles what's really going on. I'm stressing out and you're all just making it worse. Don't tell me anything unless you're 100% sure it's gonna help me, all you're doing is adding to the baggage that I'm already trying to work through. I take what you tell me into consideration but at the end of the day no one knows whats good or better for me more than I do.

Ring $200, Snowglobe $10 ,Falling Priceless

It hurts so much......So much that I don't even wanna wake up in the morning. I don't know how i make it through the day and no matter how many times people tell me things will get better I can't imagine that happening. I'm probably at the lowest I've been in the longest and I pity myself so much right now......I'm jsut letting myself wither away because I started to fall. All I wanted to do was talk to you....that's all I asked for...but it was jsut a game.....It was all jsut a game.....my feelings were a game to be played.......I am a human being, I have a heart, i have feelings. I am not someone to be toyed with. I am a genuine nice guy and because of that i feel more than others so when you hurt me it hurts more than it would others. Boy have i been proven a fool time and time again. You think you can overlook someones flaws but sometimes those flaws just just come back to bite you harder than ever damn. Yeah I bought a $200 ring but it was for me to hold onto until things went somewhere, whereit seemed things were going but like i said I'm a fool, drunk and mad I jsut gave up......boy what a fool I am........boy how much I'm hurting, boy how much I cared.......boy how much i fell.....They say we're all jerks or care about one thing.......what if you had the opportunity to be with someone who was nothing like that.......

The Claddagh's Rings distinctive design features two hands clasping a heart, and usually surmounted by a crown. The elements of this symbol are often said to correspond to the qualities of love (the heart), friendship (the hands), and loyalty (the crown). The expression which was associated with these symbols in the giving of the ring was: "With my two hands I give you my heart, and crown it with my loyalty." Yet, the expression, "Let love and friendship reign forever" can be found as another meaning for the symbols.

How Do I Feel?

How do I feel?

I feel alone; empty
Longing for something I can't have
Wishing for what never was

I feel lost; afraid
Trying not to lose who I am
Holding on to what little sanity I have left
I feel sad; detered
Picking up the pieces of a broken heart
Unsure if all the pieces are even here
I feel worthless; wasted
So much of my life to give
So much of my dreams to share
I feel hurt; broken
The pain is an endless abyss
No one could ever touch me the way you did
I feel....

Untitled

Sitting here thinking about where things went
Wondering how it all came to this
Wishing for things to be where they were
Reminiscing about spending hours on the phone
Wanting to understand where those times went
Feeling like I lost the greatest opportunity
Praying that it wasn't just my imagination
Believing that we really had something
Thinking that there's still a future here somewhere
Hoping that no matter where things are now there's still something to look forward to.....

Chronicles of a High Guy Vol 1 Chapter 1

Okay I've just thought of a great idea. Seeing that a lot of deep thinking goes on while one is high, I'm going to post up some of my thoughts and actions while I am high. As you may or may not know I have started dabbling into the world of brownies and have found the effects interesting if not strong at times but anyways back to the whole point of this.....As I was saying I will be posting up whatever it is I'm typing, thinking, or doing while i am Hi and posting it up here whether they are finished or not......so here is the first post of Chronicles of a High Guy this is a short one but still.....Enjoy!!!!!!!


"Big Girls Don't Cry

Nothing breaks my heart more than to see a girl cry especially a beautiful one. So imagine how I felt when the saw the girl who a lot of the guys consider to be the baddest girl at Post (right now) crying. Sure it may have been for a stupid reason like.....(crying because upset that you've drank to the point where you're throwing up and you're embarrassed)...but she was crying none the less and she was vulnerable and it just broke my heart. I don't know why, but I have tended to view girls as being these precious thing that needed to be taken care of be made happy so to see one unhappy it bothers me because they don't deserve to be feeling that way"

Growing up is hard to do

So earlier today I'm on facebook and I see my old elementary school crush has posted up a link on her myspace linking to some guys myspace who happens to be a fan and apparently he's used one of her pics as his layout out so I'm like ok.....let me check this out......Imagine to my surprise when the page loaded and I saw a full page spread of her sanz clothing. First of all never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would ever see this girl naked. It was so much of a shock that I really didn't know what to do with that information. So I do a little internet searching and i find out that she's a fetish model. First there's the 21 year old mature part of me that finds the pictures rather pleasing (toned down exactly how the pic made me feel) but there was still the part of me that remembered the girl that I slipped, tripped, and busted my lip for. The first girl that I ever had any kind of infatuation for and a dude was only seven at the time and the crush lasted til I ws probably fourteen. The girl who basically set the bar for every other girl who came afterwards. Honestly if you saw this girl you would basically see the connection with every other girl that came afterwards. So I'm like torn cause the adult in me is hype that he came across this works while the kid in me is crushed. I know it's a little irrational, you know people grow, people change but it's just that it hit me like a ton of bricks. Honestly this is gonna seem so wrong of me but I think I've fallen in love all over again, well not really love since you know how i feel about that word but.....yo i can't explain it, I think she's gonna be on my mind for a good few days....I didn't think anyone could top Lauren London in my mind......I guess i was wrong.

New Passion......Ultimate Betrayal

When it comes to music I listen to just about everything with a preference to one genre over the other but just this summer I started listening to more and more latin music, specifically Reggaeton and Bachata. I've been listening to Reggaeton for some time now but my appeciation for Bachata is somewhat new....I found it so amazing....because of it I was introduced to a band duo called Xtreme and started listening to more Aventura. Of all the Aventura songs I've listened to, there's one that seems to catch my attention more than the others. The song is called "Ella Y Yo" and basically in the song Don Omar is talking to his friend played by Romeo from Aventura and he's confessing how he's having an affair with some dudes wife. The whole time Romeo is talking about how his life with his wife is perfect and how Don Omar should still persue this girl because apparently her husband doesn't hold her heart anymore...The whole time Don Omar is telling Romeo that he doesn't know who this dude is or understand the situation but Romeo still keeps convincing him to follow his heart, then finally Don Omar admits that the person that he's been having an affair with is Romeo's wife and asks him for forgiveness because it's killing him that he gave into temptation and betrayed his friend. Romeo refuses to forgive him and says that he lost two people in his life that night and says goodbye to him forever.personally I love this song but am disgusted by what happened in the song. I'm like...."how could he betray his friend like that and sleep with his wife". I think why this song gets to me is because of I've lived a situation similar to this on more than one occasion. It just urks me how someone could be betrayed like that by the person/people he cares about....

Cheaters.....Why?

Okay we're gonna move away from my usual self-loathing posts to something a bit more serious and not all me, me, all about me. We're gonna talk about cheating and why it happens. Honestly the thought of cheating sickens me and I truly dislike people who do it. So I want to understand why it happens. By cheating you do know I mean infidelity right? If you're going to commit your heart to someone why would you do something as idiotic as cheat on them. If you truly feel the need to cheat on them why don't you just break up with them instead because they're apparently lacking something you want or not giving you something you need. One site says "Statistically speaking, men cheat for a single primary reason: sex". The site then goes on to say that it is a the biological urge of men to "spread their seed" that drives them. In the case of marriages & committed couple men sex tends to become routine or mechanical. Not an adventure as it once was, but simply as a means to an end. And so they seek that adventure, that adrenaline rush, with another woman (or women). As you would guess it's a lot more complicated for women than just sex. According to the site most women don't cheat for the sake sex but rather it is a secondary concern to them. Apparently when it comes to women you have to look at the emotional aspect rather than the physical aspect of cheating. They will carry on emotional affairs...where they'll fall in love and experience emotional intimacy with a men, while never taking it to the physical level. It's these type of affairs that can continue on for years, without ever being detected, and often leaving a wake of destruction in their path. So basically if a man isn't giving them the attention they want they go and find it somewhere else. Honestly I feel that this makes men look like the bad guys. I feel that this is saying that men cheat and are also responsible for women cheating but sadly it makes sense. First I'll tackle the mens' side then the womens'. Okay, I understand that it is a biological instinct to spread our seed that drives us but we are not animals but we have certain parts of our personality called the ego and superego which separates us from the animals and controls our animalistic needs. There are other biological factors that affect other animals but we can control why can't the need to spread our seeds and dominate be one of them. If you find that sex is becoming a routine why don't you communicate with your partner and spice it up a lil, do something different for once that isn't part of your routine so it feels new and you don't feel the need to get that brand new feeling from someone else. Now I find the woman's aspect of cheating to be easier to tackle. COMMUNICATION!!!!!!! If you feel your partner is not giving you the attention you need then communicate that fact to then. maybe they don't notice that or maybe they have a lot going on with themselves but communication is key. If he's still not giving you the attention you need then drop the dude and find someone who will appreciate you and what you have to offer rather than cheat on him. If he is giving you attention but it's still not satisfying you then maybe you need to re-evaluate yourself. All in all cheating does not need to happen and we owe it to ourselves and our partners to see that it ends.

Letter to Ms. R apparently miss Right

One of my "friends" told me today that she feels lonely. I wanted to tell her I feel lonely too so why don't we fix that together but I didn't. This friend of mine happens to be a girl I've been interested in but my problem is I've been interested in a lot of girls. So many girls that I'm not sure what I want at times. I ask myself who is the girl who truly holds my heart right now...and one person pops into my head....Ms. R. YOu may be saying "If I feel so strongly about Ms. R, why don't I tell her?" but what if i'm afraid of being hurt. What if I'm so use to being rejected that the first thought that comes into my head when I'm interested in a girl is "Why even bother, you know you don't stand a chance." That's the life i've lived. I've tried to be more than I currently am, make changes to myself to make me more appealing but it just makes me feel uncomfortable to not be who I am. I just want to tell her "Honestly I have spent almost six months chasing you. It's been hard but something in me just keeps pushing even though on some level I feel more and more hurt and think even lower and lower of myself. You are the-the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is-is-is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. You are the perfect girl to me even with all whatever flaws no matter how numerous thay may be, but you know what, I have my flaws too. I can tell myself over and over that I'm done with you but the end of the day it's you that I can't get my mind off of. You are like one of those few girls that offer practically everything I look for but not the major things.....your trust and your heart. I try so hard to break down that wall you have but I feel like I just can't. I would use everything god-made possible to do it but I don't know what it is that I need."

A Purpose....

I've been told that I put too much personal info into this blog. Well that was the reason I created this blog. To be my outlet because like I said I don't like opening up to people and I need to get out my thought and feelings somehow. I could just write in a journal but I find myself allowing people to read them anyway. I've "forgotten" my journal's in different places numerous times for people to read them. I do it because I want people to understand who I am and where I come from and what I'm facing. So what if it's too much, it's my life. It's not like I'm giving out my social security number. So.....on to my life. Basically.....I'm gonna use a new system when referring to girls so as to avoid confusion. We start with Ms. R, ah yes Ms. R. I've been attempting to court ms. R for about 3 or 4 months now. Only managed to take her out once and since then have been unsuccessful in my endeavors. I've been told by numerous people to not ask her out anymore. One person said wait for her to come to me while another says just completely move on and just talk to her as a friend. I'm sorta doing both but come on I really don't like to give up. Also this does not seem like the kind of girl who would get the clue and ask me to go out anywhere. So ms. A, my good ol' buddy ms. A. ms. A and I have had a very interesting relationship. We first started out not liking each other and then ended up becoming very good friends. Sometimes I even view her as one of my best friends. The thing is I sometimes find myself becoming attracted to her on numerous occasions. At times sexually attracted but also at times romantically attracted to her. So here's the problem, first she has like OD (I'm talking OD) history with one of my best friends, and she is completely oblivious to me as anything more than a friend (ehhh, that's my life for you). Anywayzzzz, ms. A is continuously having relationship problems and I am the constant shoulder to cry on. I keep my mouth shut and comfort her when what I really wanna be saying is "we're both looking for the same thing why can't we find it in each other. These guys don't appreciate who you are and what you have to offer but at the end of the day I do." You'd think the fact that I've disliked almost every guy she's messed with or been in a relationship with would have been a clue but nope. I sometimes find myself wishing that things had been different between us back in HS then maybe things would be different between us now but at this point what can I really do now. Then there's Ms. P. Ms. P is like me with tits and energy but she's just another opportunity missed(or is she). Just when I thought ms P was out of my life she comes to my school. Lucky ME!!!!!!!! (sarcasm). I usually wouldn't mind but she has such a flirtatious personality that's just gonna pull me back in and the girl already has a boyfriend. uuuugghhhh, Why me, why me!!!!!! I can't avoid her cause we're in the same circle of friends, So what do I do, what do I do? So those are the top 3 Ms.' right now. There are a few more, not a lot more but those are the top 3 and the ones who matter right now. Let's see how things progress.

Blank Slate

This week I've been given the chance to see how my life could be if I make the right changes necessary. I was given the opportunity to really talk to a friend of mine that I've known for some time now and had a lot in common with. Little did I know is we had a lot more in common than I could ever imagine. The only difference is he is a lot better with the ladies than I am. The thing is though he use to be in the exact same boat as me. I mean down to a T, he was me. The nice guy, the hopeless romantic, the guy who wrote the poems for the girl, the one who always gets stuck in the nearly inescapable "friend zone". Hell some of the things we had in common were downright creepy, if not scary. Well anyway, as I was saying, this dude USE to be in the same boat as me but has come to understand how to play the game better. Yes it is a game though some will disagree with me. So seeing that he understands who I am seeing that he basically lived my life, I asked him to give me some tips as to how to change things around and one of these the things he told me is to start with a blank slate and basically just look in the mirror and examine who I am and what I have to offer. Also how can I go about presenting these qualities in a desirable way. He also introduced me to a site that I feel everyone should check out no matter how tight your swag is http://extraordinaryg.wordpress.com. The site gives some very good incites. Some of which I was already aware of and have been practicing as well as some that were new to me and will try out. To see the person I can be become has inspired me. It's like finally seeing the light in the dark. I now really see what I need to do to breakout of the nice-guy complex and soon enough there'll be a new me. Just need to start out with a blank slate. Please leave your comments and checkout http://extraordinaryg.wordpress.com

The Real Life Hitch

Hitch - "Basic Principles - no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet; he just needs the right broom."

Me - "Any guy can get any girl he wants. his game just has to be on point."

Believe it or not I';ve been saying that line since before Hitch came out in theatres. My life has more in common with that movie than just that line. Basically I've been somewhat of a Hitch myself. I've been giving out advice for as long as I can remember; specifically relationship advice. Whenever a friend is in a predicament of what to say or what to do with a member of the opposite sex or is having some kind of problem with their significant other, they tend to come to me at times and my advice tends to be realy good. So I know what you're wondering. How does a guy who gives out relationship advice not be in a very prosperous relationship or whatever. I'm pretty sure if I really knew that answer then I wouldn't be where I am. It just seems like for me things just don't pan out the way I think they will. I give the advice but implementing them myself is a lot more difficult for me. Am I even utilizing myself though? I wish I had my own me who could analyze me and give me advice. Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?

This is me then....

Most people don't understand who I am because I have trouble letting people in so this is me giving random facts about myself

Favorites:

Color-Blue

Food-Mac n Cheese

Book-Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince

Drink-Iced Tea (The Haitian kind with Vanilla Extract in it)

Singer-Usher

Number-5

Athlete-Kobe Bryant

Sport- To watch Basketball, To participate in Track

Track & Field Event- 400m

Quote- "Nothing is impossible, Just hard to get"

Earliest Memory - First Day of school, Don't remember anything before then

Greatest Triumph - Getting The RA Position

Biggest Tragedy - Fathers Death

First thing that attracts me to a girl: Her Smile, Then her Eyes

Favorite Passtime - Surfing the internet, Read Comics(Yes I do that, this is my Cartoons)

Favorite Superhero - Bart Allen aka Impulse aka Kid Flash aka Flash no. 4

Favorite Song - At the moment "Can You Stand the Rain" by New Edition








Excerpt from my Autobiography (yes I know, a lot to read)

Life to me means friends and family who you can trust and who trusts you. I don’t really fully trust anyone because I feel most people have let me down or let me down except for my mother and that prevents me from getting close to or being able to open up fully to anyone. Whenever I completely put my faith in someone to help me accomplish a task they don’t always come through for me and cause of that I have learned to rely on myself more and more but I still long to find someone, possibly a significant other in which I can put all my trust because I feel not being able to trust anyone is doing more harm to me than good. I’m basically content in life. I’m not sad but I’m also not over the top happy. I feel very thankful for the friends that I have and I have a lot of friends but at the same time I still feel alone and misunderstood.

My greatest fear is the basic idea of death because I fear that once you’re dead then that’s it. There is no afterlife such as heaven or hell and there’s just nothing as in you cease to exist. I know death is natural and we have no control over it but the idea that when it’s over it’s just over scares me and at times prevents me from looking ahead to the future because I feel I’m just another step closer to the inevitable but I refuse to let my fear prevent me from living in the present like I’d love to get a motorcycle or even go skydiving sometime in the near future because while I fear death I live to make more experiences for myself. I don’t fray away from taking risks because I believe with great risk comes even greater rewards. I guess in a way you can say my greatest fear is of the unknown because I have no idea what comes after the end.

Another fear of mine is the fear of failure and living in regret. When I start something for the most part I tend to finish it because otherwise it starts to eat at me. Even if I have to fight the odds I make sure it gets done. To not finish something that I start is like a major hit in the gut and it just bothers until I get it done. I just tell myself whatever is keeping me from accomplishing the task is all in my head and can completely be overcome if I put my mind to it. I truly believe that anything and I mean anything in life is possible but is just hard to get. Knowing that nothing is impossible puts more possibilities in your reach. I don’t let anything discourage me from the ultimate prize.

My greatest desire in life is to travel the world and visit places such as Paris, Barcelona, and Rome. The idea of being free to travel the world and experience new and different cultures has always interested me. I also want the freedom that traveling brings. I want to be able to see historical landmarks, interact with people who’s customs are completely different from my own and experience the nightlife that these places have to offer. I’ve even considered moving to France because I’ve always been fascinated by the country. Who knows, someday I just might but I know for sure I’m going to visit it sometime in the next five years.

Another desire of mine is to have my own family. I feel that I want a family to have people that rely on me and that I can come through for the way my father came through for my family. At the same time I can rely on them too but I will hold off on the idea of a family until I am stable enough to support one. I want to give them everything my parents gave me as well as the things my parents couldn’t give me. At the same time I am going to be a little more lenient with them because though I am proud of the way my parents raised me they are accustomed to different things growing up in Haiti than growing up in America because of that they have been more strict than most parents born in America are. I will raise my kids with some of the ideals I was raised with but will at the same time incorporate my own experiences growing up in America.

Five years from now I see myself still in school. Either I’ll be in graduate school or in medical school. I’m either going to be studying to be a psychiatrist or an anesthesiologist if the medical school thing works out I want to make the most I possibly can out of myself and I believe that advancing my education as far as I possibly can aid me in that endeavor. I also see myself married in five years. Ten years from now I see myself either with a PhD and possibly the head supervisor at whatever laboratory I’m working at or finishing off my residency and one more step towards my medical license.

I believe my greatest triumph is being where I am today. I’m a High School graduate; I am a junior Biomedical Science major at Long Island University’s CW Post campus and one more step towards being a doctor. I’m a Resident Assistant, a member of the NAACP, and the Vice President of Black Students United. I’m trying to be as involved as possible on campus because like I said earlier I want to make the most out of myself and go as far as I can possibly go. I want to be a senator on the student government association, a member of the E-board for my school’s chapter of the NAACP, and I want to write a comic book column for my schools newspaper. I hope that by doing all this that when I reach that point in my life I’ll be able to look back on my past and feel like I accomplished something and made a difference.

The reason I want to become a doctor is not because of the money because there are so many other jobs that require less work and get more money but rather to make a difference because I enjoy helping others. I’m always there to give advice and assist any of my friends when they’re in trouble, I give blood every opportunity I can, I donate money all the time, and I even managed to get one of my old history teachers on “Help Me Howard” so he could find a live Kidney donor because of the difference he made and my life. I don’t help others for the recognition but rather for the satisfaction of knowing that I made a difference. At the end of the day that’s what I’d like to look back and realize. I wish that everyone would feel that way about helping others.

11 Things Guys Don’t Understand About Women

Men always say they don’t “get” the female sex, but what specifically—besides their going to the restroom in groups—don’t they comprehend? We found out.

1. Why, oh, why, can’t you create a single, central location for your hair ties and bobby pins?!? And why is there one on the handle of the microwave?


2. Why are women so afraid of bugs but can regularly pour hot wax on their bodies and rip hair out by its roots?


3. Girls and drama! My God, it’s like an episode of Dawson’s Creek! He said, she said…it goes on and on for years. Do you ever get over an argument?


4. I am confused enough about why the onslaught of hormones every month, like clockwork, still takes me by surprise (the next day when she gets her period, I’m like, Oh! We got into a fight because she was hormonal!), but why does that fact take her by surprise? Shouldn’t she kind of realize it and be like, ‘Don’t listen to me—I’m hormonal’?


5. I don’t get why getting married so soon is so important to most women. Is love not enough?


6. Why all the shoes? Really, my sister has suitcases full of shoes that I’ve thrown aside more often than she’s even seen them. It boggles the mind!


7. I don’t understand their attitudes! Everything is good for, like, the first three months, but after that, it’s a whole different ball game!


8. I don’t get why girls say one thing and mean something different. Like when they say, ‘You can watch the game,’ and then when you do, you get in trouble.


9. What I don’t understand is why girls really, really, really want that nice guy, but once they find one, they can’t date him because now they need a jerk.


10. Why do girls not like other girls when they first meet them? It’s as if they have to prove themselves to each other before they’ll consider them acceptable to hang out with.


11. I don’t understand why women can’t just speak more directly. They always want you to do something, but they don’t put it in words. Instead, they talk around the issue. I wish they were more up front and just said it!

How Well Do I Understand Women

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might just be a women who has taken the quiz to see if

it's really authentic! Whatever it is, Congratulations....

You're an Expert on the most difficult topic on earth....

Women!!

I understand that:

What is the first thing women look for in a man is stability

For a typical romantic night out with her guy, a girl would most like dinner outside and a walk along the river

Women are most worried about the way they present themselves

That in a relationship a woman starts to trusting a guy when he becomes a best friend.

In a desparate situation where only one of these can be carried in her handbag, she will choose a small mirror

Women prefer to get married to men who are strong, stable, and are good providers

The one thing most women can't do without is a make-up kit

On a first date, you must never tell her how much you love her

The one trait, women most envy in a man is their status in society

If a Woman really likes you, she will send you suttle glances and smiles to let you know she likes you

If a group of Married women got together they most talk about their intimate love lives

Women feels happiest when their partner supports their decisions

Most women are happiest between the age of 20-30

A woman really feels like a woman she falls deeply in love

In bed, the most important thing a woman wants is closeness with their partner

I got the concepts down, so what am I missing? Maybe it's how I use what I know?